It’s been a hot minute since I last wrote a blog - nearly 10 months now!
While I’ve thought many times since January to sit down and write, I wasn’t sure what to say; nothing inspirational was coming to me.
You see, I was cocooning; transforming into something new all this time.
At the end of January, an unexpected turn of events in my life happened. One that, in all honesty, I could have predicted - and, perhaps, should have seen coming - but was in denial of because it was disruptive to the path I had embarked on. I had a vision of what evolving my family looked like, and this kind of drama wasn’t part of it.
But the universe had other plans for me.
My personal evolution needed an acceleration.
And, boy, did this do the trick.
As Eckhart Tolle says, suffering cracks open the shell of the ego so the light of consciousness can shine through.
And, nothing makes a mother suffer more than the suffering of her children - nothing.
And, I cracked wide open, requiring immense surrender and grace in the face of so much that was out of my control, but required my absolute presence to see us through.
I had to go deep within, and look at what was still unconscious in me.
The hidden lingering attachments that my ego wasn’t ready to let go of, and which were holding me back from the clarity we needed; and fully realizing the path of self-actualization that I had set course for years earlier.
The inner child fears that bound me to an innocent, but immature and misplaced idealism that desperately needed redirection to it’s proper trajectory.
I had to confront, head on, what still blocked me from completing my years long transformation.
So, I made some tough decisions.
Found the courage to put up some new, firmer boundaries.
And began the work.
The caterpillar doesn’t know know what it’s path is when it instinctually enters the chrysalis. It doesn’t know that it will break itself completely down and put itself back together into something brand new - more beautiful, glorious and magnificent than it was before. It just enters the darkness and begins the work, fearlessly, with full faith and trust in the unknown.
I often use this analogy with my childbirth and hypno-coaching clients and students.
There is nothing anyone can “do” to give birth to your baby for you.
There is nothing anyone can “do” to heal your psychic wounds and birth the newest, more authentic version of you for you.
The path of transcendence from caterpillar to butterfly is yours and yours alone. All anyone else can do is hold the space for you while you go inward. To be the secure shell protecting you and reminding you every step of the way that that there’s power in vulnerability; to reflect to you that you’re completely safe while you break down what is no longer serving your highest good, and become who you’re meant to be.
We are afforded many opportunities for this experience throughout our human journeys. I see childbirth as one such incredible opportunity for a woman to experience this kind of ego death and spiritual awakening, and fully know who she is in her authentic essence - powerful, divine, magnificent, glorious and wise.
I rooted myself in this space of inner knowing, of grace and surrender, as I embarked on this next leg of my healing and awakening journey.
I didn’t ask for what happened to happen, but it arrived. And I powerfully, consciously surrendered.
And I’ve emerged, yet again.
Divinely guided, and so much creativity and life happening in this moment to consciously show up for myself and my children each step of the way. And the peace that now surrounds me is indescribable.
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